I shouldn't have to feel this way

I'm frustrated and hurt. Last night's movement left me hung up and I'm the one that suppose to feel guilty. It's all messed up. A mere joke that went astray. My humor was off mark, and I was being punished by it in the worst possible ways. The support blocks of my future are crumbling at the foundation. Imagine how it feels to step on shaky grounds. To be misunderstood and in the wrong all the time. I don't want to live in a life that is so strict and serious. Where I'm held down by a rigid thumb, pushed up tight with stuffy commands of what is right and wrong. Who made him king? Why does he get all the say? Where does this petty biased behavior come from? Why does it have to come? It's so unfair. My heart has no room to beat. My mind has no room to think. God forbid, if I open my mouth to speak. I shouldn't have to feel this way. I cannot be controlled. I'm not a subject to his manipulation. My thoughts are not restricted or limited. I'm my own person. My own voice. I'm not weak nor powerless. I have the right to my own opinion. I have the right to live the way I want to. I have the right to tell my own jokes regardless of someone's feelings get hurt. It was not my intention to bash you.