You know any explaination I come up with will never heal the wounds I've made. But I really have a feeling as to why I did it. In every relationship I had, the partner always hurted me first. whether that was taking my virginity when I've haven't completly made up my mind about it, or Cheating, or ignoring me, or just plain leaving me for someone else. and yes, I believe you were a possible so called "rebound" guy, but who couldn't blame me. I've been hurt so many times before you and I couldn't trust just anyone. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that...

Is it possible that I hurt you first, just so that you couldn't hurt me? I mean it does make sense.

Sometimes when I got into those depressed moments, I would always have an argument in my mind saying Let's break up, but Look at him he really cares, I could possibly fall for him.

And here I am fallen. No one here to help me up. Waiting for my true love to come through that door again.

I have no idea what he is up to tonight, and have no idea what he's thinking and that really upsets me.

I just want him back. I miss him so much.

I love you.